What inspires you in recovery?

What keeps you inspired in recovery?

What is your inspiration throughout recovery? Maybe it’s a person or a group of people, or maybe it’s the thought of something better than this?

Inspiration can come from anywhere. All that matters is that it continues to inspire you and lift you up on this journey through recovery. My inspiration comes from many places, but most of all it comes from my family, and the friends that have stuck by me along the way.

The Inspiration that holds me together throughout all doubt;

This photo of my grandparents taken on Christmas day 2018 represents family to me. It represents the inspiration I need to keep going. Very few people my age can say that they still have both sets of grandparents but I can and for that, I am so, so lucky.

Despite recent health issues on both sides we’re all still here, we’re all still standing (somewhat) and we’re all ready for what is coming this year. We’re under no illusions that we’re on borrowed time and that’s okay; At least it’s still time.

I am recovering from my family, my friends and myself.

I can’t have what will be my final year with my grandparents overshadowed and ruined by this horrible disorder. It won’t stop me from caring for them and spending time from them.

When I was younger family didn’t matter that much. My disorder took over and getting smaller was all that I cared about. I shut everyone out and I starved, self-harmed, drank, smoked, etc because it numbed everything that I didn’t want to feel. I’m learning to accept, identify and deal with emotions in a whole different way, and it’s allowed me to open myself up to the reality of love and discomfort. I don’t need to shut people out anymore because I’m not afraid to feel the whole range of everything that comes with allowing people in.

If ever I feel like giving up I will have this photo, and so many others, to remind me why I can’t.

What gives you the most inspiration to carry on with recovery? Is it something similar to me, family and friends? Or are you motivated by something else entirely?

Leave a comment and let me know your biggest inspirations!

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37 thoughts on “What inspires you in recovery?

  1. Aww this was such a lovely post, it’s so lovely how much your grandparents mean to you. Not a lot of people appreciate their grandparents πŸ’•

    1. My partner is one of those people – it angers me so much. But I love them so unconditionally, and even more so as I get older. The guilt of how I treated people as a teenager is so overwhelming, especially how I treated them, and that’s something I’ll never be able to take away.

      Thank you for stopping by and commenting <3

    1. Thank you for reading love. Grandparents are so special and amazing, it breaks my heart that this time next year I won’t have the majority of them. x

  2. I think it’s so important to cherish our grandparents because we don’t really how much we’re missing until they’re gone. I know it’s a bit awful to say that, but it’s so true…

    I wish you all of the best in your recovery!

    1. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. It’s true what you say – my grandfather (far right in the photo) has recently been diagnosed with bowel cancer and, at the moment, it’s not good. My grandmother (far left) has liver cancer and has months, while the other grandfather is suffering from mini TIAs (strokes) almost daily.

      It’s a lot all at once and my heart is breaking for them already. But that is why times like this are so important.

  3. Brave words. I’ve suffered with bulimia, but have stopped for over 5 years now. You’ll feel much more positive when you come out the other side. Good luck x

  4. I love this picture. God bless you. Feeling your emotions moves everything along. I had some rough ones arise yesterday myself but thank goodness I sat with the energies. Thanks for sharing with us.

  5. Yes, you’re so blessed to have both set of grandparents at your age. Love this post and how much your grandparents inspire you! Making me miss mine πŸ˜ŠπŸ‘ŒπŸΎ

    1. Thank you for stopping by and commenting. My grandparents mean the world to me, and seeing what they are going through is heartbreaking. But I suppose the fact that my heart is breaking just shows the love I have for them.

  6. You can really tell this post is from the heart and you’re certainly a strong person!

    You’re right, we should appreciate all of our family more as we never know for sure when they’ll be taken away.

    Keep fighting!

  7. Grandparents are the best. We should treasure them whilst we still have them. Such a lovely post xxx

    1. I just like it. I saw that other bloggers had done it in the past and I thought it was cute – so when I was able to sign my name digitally I did πŸ™‚

  8. That’s such a lovely idea to refocus when life gets crazy. I need to find my picture for the times when I’m struggling with depression. Stay strong xx

  9. This is so sweet and made me very emotional! I haven’t had my grandparents in my life for a long time but I still wonder what they’d think if they were alive to see me. The rest of my family are definitely a huge motivation when it comes to working on my mental health, though, and have probably kept me alive.

    Such a lovely idea and beautiful post.

    1. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment.

      I get emotional reading this too, mostly because of what is happening with my grandparents at the moment. This photo fills me with happiness and sadness all at once. I didn’t even know it was possible to feel too conflicting emotions at the same time, but here we are!

  10. This is a beautiful photo, and a great inspiration to recover! Family is SO important, and I can feel your love for yours when reading this. Let that love embrace you during the harder times.

    1. It’s hard to look at right now as so many people in that photo won’t be here for another. But it will be with me forever and in time it will be able to help me heal. Thank you for reading and commenting.

  11. Being around people that support me is what inspires me in recovery. And also being able to help others that are now going through what I have come through!

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